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Hope you got the memo. Plus its has more of my photography so easy read! Yaaay.

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So I cant sleep, obviously. Took a four hour nap might explain something though.

Today is the 4th of July and I am so not up to go to the fair. Espicially the fact that my parents want to spend ALL DAY there. I mean its fun...but after going every year its now getting old. Plus I kinda dont wanna run into friends that I really dont care for.

I am sick of my old high school friends. Some I am still close with but the ones that are the closest to you just all drift off. It really irratated me when I came out and said I had depression and their reaction was "..oh" and then went back to the subject of weed, raves, drugs, and how AWESOME all that is. Their absoulutely pathetic and I never knew why I was friends with them in the first place.

I'm leaving for LA on Tuesday and I still feel unprepared. What to wear, how my scripts go, how well my walk is with converese boots. Bllahhh >.< I realllly wanna do welll this time and actually feel prepared.

I hate peer pressure. And even if your out of high school you still get it. Its soo anoying how many times I have said no and yet they keep on going on it. Grr.

Well work is still going pretty good tho. Next week after I get back from LA I work 6 days straight before I leave for Idaho. Which is a good thing since my manager wants me to have a decent pay next pay day and want me to get the hours.

Funny how I work at a Cupcake/Cookie bakery and yet I still lose weight and CRAVE cupcakes when I'm not working. Guess from all that running around at work. I still enjoy being there and the people there are all great. Just wish that I could have more time to see some friends that I do give a damn about. Its like I hafta scedule them in or it just happens to be a lucky day and I'm free. My hours arnt that bad, all mornings and off for the rest of the afternoon. But its hard to spend all day with a friend when you know you have another morning shift the next day at work.

I guess I should TRY to go to bed and not stress too hard. Woo for the fair :|

Keh. So I actually have a weekend off...or atleast Sunday. Havnt had one in a while so its exciting yet not so much.

Wanted to see Lenny in which I havnt seen in a few months that I do wanna see but unfotunately hes out of town and never returned my call. Obviously he was at some party which I wont fret about...but still boo :[.

Saw Ricky at my work and culdve hung out with him today but I was tired and thought I would be in the city b.c of the earlier plan as said above.

Had work at 6am today and everything went smoothly even if I was the only baker b.c the other one went sick. Which was fine since there wasnt much to do but another batter production and a couple of buttercreams.

Work has been fine other than the early wake up calls and some of my mistakes. Which gets embaressing but everyone makes mistakes. Its nice when you have such a sweet manager who doesnt get mad but just says that it happens. So used to school and the whole "WTFFF FAILLL!!!11!1"

Leaving for LA in a few weeks and still need to get a few things done.

Charmanders birthday is on Tuesday so its nice to be invited to her dinner. I havnt seen her or any of my normal friends in a while. Did hang out with Caitlyn which was happy b.c we do have a lot in common, just feel apart b.c. of school.

What has work done for me so far is getting me and not have any sad attacks. Also taking my meds might help. Not as much drama has happened except the occasional ditch from a friend or two. I do get anoyed when my sister has to have something bad to say about an ex when all I wanna do is hang out with them. I mean I understand that I was truly hurt but with my lack of friends and forgive and forget I just want to have fun.

Been reading Twilight and so far its pretty good. I know I know, last year it was my whole Harry Potter phase in which I stopped after book 5 and now Twilight. I never really get into books not unless its found in the teens section and has a series. Even though I hate those rich bitch, magicalness, and the drama, I am still glued to it like no other.

Oh and getting paid rocks! So far most of my money has gone for food but I did indulge into some DVDs. Watching House at the moment oh gawd I would so jump Dr. Chase. Haha.

Anyways I guess back to reading then bed then wake up to do a few errands. REALLLY wished I could hang out with people...we'll see.

GAHH need to schedule my drivers test or it will NEVERR happen I sweear >.

What else has been new? My life consists of work and falling asleep with the light and tv on. I spend my time in front of this macbook hoping something interesting happens. And I'm going to continue to do this same routine until January where I am most likely starting school at COM...the school I'd least expected to go to but most convenient with my job.

My job has been going great with the random bitching to rich Marinites and the dirty looks from the dishwasher only b.c I'm the one whos in charge of the register ((wtf?)) like they ALWAYS get mad at me and think that I should do dishes when I specifically signed to do retail and is not supposed to leave, and when I TRY to do dishes to be nice my manager tells me to continue register and that its not my job. I mean I dont mind doing dishes but I mean if I belong in front of the register its fine. Its just the fact that it seems like its MY fault that I should do my job and more and yet the person supposed to be doing there job wants to be better...w.e.

Trained a new retail person and hes pretty good. I love my staff and try to get on there good side but its hard to make EVERYONE happy. My manager and I have been getting along and its nice to gossip with her.

Hrmm, nothing much other than I had a crappy date and that I have a few people talking to me again which is making me happy and somewhat annoyed with certain stalkers.

Now that I'm tired I guess I shuld go to bed. Another work day which will be better I hope even tho its retail work again :P baking on Tuesday so its alright.

First paycheck was $772.95!!! Thats like the most I have ever had or made...w00t.